Saturday, October 11th, 2008
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7:01 pm
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i have got to come back to this place more often...my head is like a constant hamster wheel turning and turning and turning
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Wednesday, October 8th, 2008
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7:09 pm
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I am pretty sure I am going to be at my new job for awhile...I got this new book called the secret, recommended to me by a wonderful fb and its all about how you change your outlook and the energy in which you interpret your life...really interesting. And a week before I had bought the book I had some realizations (as usual) that my purpose in life is to help people...I think I'm going to stick with this company and give it my all so I can work up to be a supervisor...face it, this economy sucks and in the field I'm in I'm not going to get paid much, so mind as well put quality time in and work up the ladder right?
anyhoo...while I was at work today I had to take my 'hearing impaired' (deaf is apparently politically incorrect didntcha know?) client out to spend money because if you have more than like 2g in your acct then they shut your SSI off...so...I was out with her shopping for 4 hours. 4 hours with a deaf woman, that has a chronic illness (other than the physical) and a drug addiction...And let me tell you, we kicked the shit for those 4 hours and had a great time. We conversated through texting mostly...a lot of hearing impaired people have sidekicks for communication. And we would write each other texts without sending them...and it was funny because sometimes we would talk about people around us lol. Not that that helped her out in her recovery process or anything, but I did have a good time..and she taught me a few ASL things. It's so amazing to be able to communicate and kind of feel a bond with someone that doesn't have any way of verbal communication. Could you imagine how frustrating it must be, not to be able to speak because you can't hear...I dont know..I've been feeling really spiritual lately, and if you know me...I am not a religious person. I attribute that factor to growing up in a cathlioc family and having it basically forced upon you. I don't know or can't explain these feelings but I guess I feel like I have a purpose in life or a destiny for that matter? I dont know..can't really put it into words. The odder thing about it is I've been more stressed out than ever lately. I don't get it. Sometimes I guess you dont need to understand things to accept them for what they are.
...its naptime..i should come back to this place more often, ive had this thing for so long and i go back yeeearrrs ago and its just amazing to see how much you have changed.
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Sunday, September 21st, 2008
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5:34 am
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when i go to work downtown everyday there are always people handing out shit..mostly 'god' pamphlets..but i always grab something from someone...one because it might actually be something good..(it never is but hey MAYBE one day it will be) and two...i figure these poor people that are handing shit out aren't allowed to leave their job until every one of their flyers is gone...so I grabbed one from someone last week and it s a little black card and says "got purpose?" and that shit has made me been thinking all week. because for some reason i have been feeling spiritual-ish lately? and im not religious at all, duh. its wierd, but the purpose of the card is that its this thing in delaware on sundays that i guess just talks about the purpose and meaning of life and other philiosophical shit that goes along with "got purpose?" ...I think im going to go...not today though
todays a different story...i get to go on a recovery walk with my clients from work...i probably; shouldnt? im in like day one of 'recovery' haha oops?
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Monday, June 2nd, 2008
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2:58 pm
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I hate hate hate when jerks in stores that ring up your groceries, or whatever else you're buying don't hand you whatever you just bought and you wind up forgetting it because they never even handed you the friggen bag!!!
It's a ploy to steal your crap I swear!
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Tuesday, May 13th, 2008
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8:26 am
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Wednesday, April 9th, 2008
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6:48 pm
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so my moms is a nimrod and dropped her brand new phone that i had just got her in the toilet! ugh! I guess i'm supposed to pay for it just like i have to pay her phone bill every month, UGH!
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6:45 pm
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Monday, March 31st, 2008
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9:06 am
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ugh this baby weight just is not coming off at all! i should have continued to boob feed then I would have lost more...I need to go to the store and get a girdle or something before I start work so people dont think I was sitting around eating my whole maternity leave!!!
current mood: FAT
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Sunday, October 28th, 2007
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3:17 pm
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I'm 7 mos prego, already! I cant believe how quickly it has gone by..and how fat ive gotten...everythings gotten bigger, my boobs are the best part, hehhee. Its such an amazing feeling to feel life move all around in you. Though theres a lot of downsides to pregancy...peeing a lot...swollen feet since month 3 (due to elevated blood pressure / proteins in urines, i may possible be pre eclamptic by the time month 10 rolls around) I also have gestational diabetes...not fun either. Other than that im pretty healthy...im planning on having a 'birth party' instead of a baby shower so that everyone can see Mae and I can drink at the party too :) man i tell ya it isn't easy craving alcohol hehehe
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Saturday, September 29th, 2007
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5:34 am
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does anyone know of any good prenatal yoga spots in the city?
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Tuesday, September 11th, 2007
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5:10 am
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poor pukey cat..pukes on my floor then licks me...gross..i think he was thanking me for cleaning it up? or maybe cus i was treatin em like a sick child lol po cat...he made me puke too...once after i cleaned it then again after he licked me
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Tuesday, August 7th, 2007
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6:16 pm
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Friday, June 1st, 2007
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8:53 am
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oops it happened again, alone or not im going to do it different than last time, and im going to do it right
shit shit shit
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Thursday, May 3rd, 2007
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8:47 am
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gotta love when all your friends get bf/gf's they automatically ditch you until they need ya when the relationship gets ruff
ho hum homos
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Monday, February 12th, 2007
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1:14 pm
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i feel like ive been beaten with a lead mallot
...and my lungs hate me too
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Wednesday, January 31st, 2007
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9:11 am
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this new job is rough...espec when your psychotic clients claim rats and mice are raping them
bleh my gut hurtz im prolly knocked up or something thats my luck
everyone at this new jobs prego too...2 of em are anyway
does anyone even use lj anymo? i dont...primarily bc i got a gayspace and 2 jobs totaling a good 65 hrs a friggen week with mentally ill peeps ...and if that shit aint exhausting
boy o boy
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Monday, January 22nd, 2007
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9:09 am
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how come shit doesn't ever get better? i thought after a slew of shitty handings your supposed to get a full house...
and y these hives ??? wtf am i allergic to NOW??
fuck
i think its my laundry detergent? who knows...
and how do you get around shit online if your work websensors EVERYTHING?
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Sunday, October 29th, 2006
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3:29 am - we had the love hate relationship
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i miss my stepdad...everyday that i leave work i can hear him asking me to bring him a coffee...or some goddamn bannananas. When I go in the house to get the mail my heart breaks becasue he isn't sitting there on the couch. I miss taking him to the drs. I miss seeing him drive around in my blue crap geo furry storm that I gave him. I miss hearing his stories about getting arrested for selling meth. I miss coming home at 4 am watching him run up the block from god knows where. I actually miss telling him to shuttup because he would tell me off the wall nutt ass shit ...like how he was going to fuck the shit out of my mother when he got out of jail...with his neckbrace on hahahahha. Im gonna miss randomly seeing him all over the city while he was at work driving...im going to miss him yelling at me for stupid shit...and me getting caught by him...like banging under a bridge when i was 16, or smoking pot in my room, or stopping me from beating the shit out of my sister in the middle of the street hahahah. You were closer to me than my real father ever was and i miss the living shit out of you you old bastard
<3 RIP gunit (dad)
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Thursday, February 9th, 2006
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2:20 pm
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sometimes i wonder why i am the way that i am, and i talk to my family and realize ...
conversation with my aunt R
Chloe61561: how's your sister?
SeXtC01: i dunno my sister is a friggen wierdo
Chloe61561: i knew that by the time she was 3
SeXtC01: hahhahah was it because she had a block shaped head?
Chloe61561: no...because if you were talking to her, she would look at you like she didnt understand your lauguage
Chloe61561: and it only got progressively worse
SeXtC01: she still looks that way when you talk to her
SeXtC01: i pushed her out of my car last week bc she pissed me off
SeXtC01: and before i pushed her out, she did have that look on your face that you were just talkin bout
Chloe61561: i just wanted to shake her when she did that shit to me
Chloe61561: you know..
SeXtC01: lol maybe you shoulda you woulda put her brain cells back in place
Chloe61561: i think your mom was on acid during that pregnancy
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Monday, February 6th, 2006
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4:15 pm
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I like how people in the city put out birdfood...like anything else is gonna come eat it besides pigeons
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